With the death of my Aunt Cheryl in 2001, a notably genuine, incredibly GOOD person. I took a step back from the whole empire of organized religion. I had never on my own subscribed to it, just grew up in a catholic house, and went with what I was told is the way to do things. I realized I had no reason to support it
.
I had done no research, I had no information that wasn't fed to me by
everyone else. And I walked away from it. I needed to understand on my
own why, with all of these different deities, my aunt had to go the way
she did. It wasn't until 2010, through a coworker and eventual friend,
that I found an interest again. I've always been a curious person. I
like new things, different things. I like to expand my knowledge pool.
She gave me a nonjudgmental look at Buddhism through her eyes. She
understood my desire to learn, to know about a religion and what it
means to you before diving in. I must say, I studied quite a few -
Christianity, Catholicism, Islam, Judaism. But I liked Buddhism the
most. Although I am far from a practicing Buddhist, I do follow many of
their concepts and teachings. Recently I have found myself asking a lot
of questions about my own being. Who I am, who I want to be, what I want
to do, what kind of mark am I leaving on the world. And in the past,
when I began to question, when I lost my focus, it was little Buddha who
enlightened me and helped me re-establish myself. Once again, without
my realizing, Buddhism has come to my rescue. I kind of understand now
why some people are so willing and able to follow religion so blindly.
Mine reminds me where my attention should be. once I have that,
everything else will fall into place.
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