For The Record

This is me not giving a shit about what anyone else thinks. I'll be a Britney fan. Hate if you want.

It's Britney bitch....


Tonight, I found out the most amusing thing. The guy that I was with for a year and a half tried to keep a big interesting secret from me. Four months before we split he cheated and got another girl pregnant. He now has a 3 1/2 month old (beautiful) baby girl. Looking back, I dont quite understand why he would pitch such a huge fit at me when I called to break it off. After the huge attempt to make me feel bad for saying 'yea, i dont think we're going anywhere', he went and did that. Even said that he's not marrying the mom. Why? 'Not his type, he doesnt like her like that.' I should be upset right? Any jilted girlfriend would. Especially given we spoke during the relationship about how this exact situation, would be the absolute worst possible way he could fuck it up with me.

But. I moreso find it funny. Damn near hilarious. When I first found out, I couldnt stop cracking up. Is that normal? Some of my friends are actually more animately upset. To the point that they wanna get big brother 'he did that to you?' aggressive. But. I'm not. I'm nowhere near upset. Thats his little red wagon. I look at it as a bullet dodged. I didnt even make him feel guilty about it. I am a little concerned for the little one though...

...what does that say about where my head was at during the relationship? Or at least towards the end? I wonder.



Love is...an amazing feeling

Working for the Weekend

I worked my first holiday ever this week. I spent Thanksgiving and (thankfully) Black Friday in the office. I know that paycheck next week will be super sexy... On some bullshit though, a customer actually (we all think) drove a driver's blood pressure so high, that he started having chest pains and ended up in the hospital. And while EMS is working on saving this man's life, this whore has the nerve to call and complain, that she's still waiting to get home. I'm sorry miss. Pardon us for trying to keep a human being in the land of the living. Fuck you ma'am, you can walk home. On Black Friday. With all of your bags. In the dead of night. IN manhattan. I'll keep an eye out for your cameo on the 11pm news. In that case however, he survived to recover quietly in the hospital overnight. Its a shame how little i'm concerned for her well being right now however.

Its a shame that poor wal-mart guy got trampled to death though. How can 10,000 people just storm into a store like that. No one saw him get run over? No one noticed that they werent stepping on a hard, flat plastic surface? No one saw that he couldnt breathe and was clutching his chest? No one stopped or even paused to give him a hand, help him up? I hope that someone does serve time for that...it makes no sense for people to be that stupidly aggressive and completely dismissive of someone else's well being over a bloody, hd/flat-screen/cooks your food/lcd/spits fire @ your enemies, television. Really and truly, it is not that serious. You deserve everything you get. Personal opinion of course.

I want to see someone fault the employee on this one. "Oh my god, how could he? Why would he try and open those doors, seeing the mob of salivating beings?" Yea? thats the argument?


Smiling Faces

My mother and I were talking earlier today and it was a very interesting conversation. She spoke on how she tries her best not to judge people, and tried/tries to instill that idea in me. Dont judge people by what they do or dont do, say or dont say, what happens or doesnt happen. Why? Because you have no idea what's really going on in their lives. No one knows what life is behind the closed doors of someone else. Everyone knows that old adage - "walk a mile in my shoes". I'm tryyyying not to. But some people make it so hard.

Along with that old adage, there's a more recent one, not an adage, but wise words nonetheless - "beware smiling faces. smiling face tell lies." People hide the deepest, darkest, most treacherous shit, behind a wicked smile, and I know this shit first-hand. on more than one occasion. with more than one person. Until a story is carroborated, I have learned to keep my mouth shut. But once people come out the woodwork, noticing the saaaaaame things...it's time to take notice.

I try not to judge...but it's not my fault if your asking for it.


Back in The Day

it still makes me smile


Here kitty kitty

how cool would it be to walk into your room and have one of these just hanging out?



A thought

Matt Cassel is no Tom Brady. And he should be damn proud of that fact.


I watched it this morning, for the first time in my life. Now I know what everyone was talking about.



when i grow up, i'm gonna own all kinds of big dogs....

it's my life's dream for the next 2 days


A Poem from the Heart

ok so its December and i still struggle to find a decent salary/

its as hard as an over wieght glutton tryna loose an extra calorie/

I cant even get the job that he got with his GED/

and Im a double major with a danm bachelors degree/

Applications after interview, oh thanks for comming in we'll call you/

please dont gas my head head up you dont know what the hell i've been threw/

so you tell me you'll call me by tomorrow no later than noon/

it's 11:45 a.m. danm i sure do hope they call soon/

and i refuse to take my aggression out on the recession,

oh th eeconomy's bad, yea i herd it all b4, but i'm special cant i atleast get my foot in the door

calamitous despairing, my confidence needs repairing, tryna make it in a world thats fluctuating and daring.

HI, how are you i was aquiring and wondering if you were still hiring/

they laugh in my face and say "please we about to make some cuts and begin fireing"

oh completly off topic whitney i mailed you your excel book i hope you get it by tomorrow/

I need to be better on returning things i borrow/

see i hate it when someone makes a promise and they dont do it/

reminds me of my ... hmm nah lets not even get into it.

i'm soooo in debt i need at least 2 more carrers/

i'll take a job anywhere, walmart, Mcdonalds, even Sears/

nah been there done that, i want something better/

I need that ...nah , i want that chedder.

And as far as girls go. hmm Tank said it best. M.O.E./

Dont know what that stands for. then just ask me/

even though i do miss her, yes i still kiss the picture/

Sometimes i wana leave ,she has her own quandary/

oh shit the jig is up, fuck oh well i'm sorry.

i shoulda been a doctor, people never stop dying/

or maybe a priest, cause God never stops crying.

a BA in and Music Industry and Mass Communications/

what to do so many complications/

double minor in Audio productions and sports management/

wow and i thought i had a better chance dont mind me i just needed to vent.

so when you ask me hows the after grad life i F#%N hate it

I'm the most succsessful failer, who just couldnt make it.

By Jules


Soul Searching

For the first time in a long time, I feel really good about myself. And where I'm going. It's such a foreign concept to me...


I Cant Deny It

I reeeaallly like Sasha Fierce....

and I seriously hope that "Halo" comes out as a single



So the Mayan calendar predicts....


The Big Cheese weighs in

"The President-Elect was asked how he felt about the attempted (and successful) ban on baggy pants. Several cities in Michigan, Florida, Georgia and even a suburb in Chicago (Barack's hometown) have already passed a "Baggy Pants Bill" where an arrest for overexposure of your underwear can have you serve jail time, do community service and/or be fined as much as $500.

Obama's comment: "Here is my attitude: I think people passing a law against people wearing sagging pants is a waste of time. We should be focused on creating jobs, improving our schools, health care, dealing with the war in Iraq , and anybody, any public official, that is worrying about sagging pants probably needs to spend some time focusing on real problems out there. Having said that, brothers should pull up their pants. You are walking by your mother, your grandmother, your underwear is showing. What's wrong with that? Come on. There are some issues that we face, that you don't have to pass a law, but that doesn't mean folks can't have some sense and some respect for other people and, you know, some people might not want to see your underwear -- I'm one of them."

...what HE said. ...you're not cute, and neither is ur jailhouse style.



On the way to pick up my father this afternoon, my mother tried to kill me. Doing her hard-stop driving, she managed to wrench a full water bottle from the cup holder, and have it fly under her feet. She's driving. Of course, the first thing i think of is imminent death. Now for those non-horror movie buffs, there was a scene sum years ago in final destination 2 where just such a thing happened...and when the mom needed 2 hit the breaks, there was a water bottle...inhibiting the action. I immediately started channeling the friggin movie, spazzing in the passenger seat as she gunned it down the highway. After a few miles, she realized i was FAR from kidding, & pulled over 2 remove the bottle.

....I will be forcing her to watch the movie tonight.



If there was one sex act I could say I would never partake in, it would be a gangbang. Sorry, that's just not for me...not my kind of party. Thanks though. Good luck with that.


Aint No Party like a Jax Star Party

.....because Jax Star parties never stop. Thanks to the New Jack for coming through and making terribly fantastic things happen .




....Sexy is the new Commander in Chief


True Change?

Now, on one of, if not the most historical nights in American history, let alone American politics, we have a man of color, be it 1/2 black, in the Oval Office. I know many of you voted out there since we've had the largest voter turnout in history, I know some of you voted for the first time ever, and hopefully, it won't be your last.

Now, I didn't vote for Obama because he's 1/2 black, I didn't vote for him because he's democrat as I believe the idea that all minorities should vote democrat is the most ignorant idea, I didn't vote for him because I didn't like McCain, one of the reasons I voted for him was due to his stance on women's healthcare, which is important to me because I have a grandmother who is sick often. I also liked his stance on the economy, but I will admit one reason I voted had nothing to do with any of his political standings, I hoped that young african americans across the nation would open their eyes and see that the path they are currently traveling is wrong and that seeing a man who has traveled the right path would hopefully cause them to reconsider their life choices.

Having a man of color in the white house isn't the be all & end all for our people, the view on us won't change until we change. I can guarantee you, I will put my life on this, that tonight there are black kids celebrating Obamas victory, but tomorrow, somewhere in America, there will be a case of black on black, hell, black in any race, violence based on something ignorant, gang related, or just plain stupid. There will still be the glorification of gang culture, the embracing of ignorant music with no message, the wearing of clown clothes, your XXXL white tees, the jeans that have TOO much sag, the gold teeth, its too much. Black kids across the nation, who speak with a vernacular on par with the level of a chimpanzee, will be looked at as cool, while those who choose eloquence over ignorant will continue to be labeled as "sounding white" or being nerds. There will be kids on the city buses tomorrow afternoon with nothing better to discuss than a profanity-laced tirade about there peers, they'll be constantly using the word "nigga" not realizing that they're being looked at as "niggers". There will be elaborate handshakes, bandanas, "jux's", "flippings", and initiations.

By now you should get the point of what I'm trying to say. The fact that there is a man of color as President elect means that there is hope for change on some level, I'm hoping that at least one black child, teenager, or young adult can use this event as an inspiration to try and better themselves and their race.

Note: This was written off the top of my head via my sidekick. It was directly after Obama's speech, there was no time to organize my thoughts, so bare with me.

~ Courtesy of DJ Chris


November 4th

Today will go down in the record books. There's already a record number of voters reporting. Get out and make your voice heard. There are a few hours left. It doesnt matter - Conservative or Liberal, Democrat or Republican, maybe somewhere in between - rock the vote! Be a part of history =0)


Def Jam Takes a Knee

Def Jam Records Executive Vice President Shakir Stewart, 34, who replaced Jay-Z's vacancy at the label, was found dead in Atlanta on Saturday afternoon from an apparent self-inflicted gunshot wound, according to sources.

The Atlanta Journal-Constitution reports, Stewart's body was found in the bathroom of his home around 4PM on Saturday. He was later taken to Kenne Hospital where he was pronounced dead.

For more in-depth

Food for Thought


Deep Thinking

If you had a chance to change something, past or present, would u do it?

....what would it be?

After all, any changes would affect who u are, where u are, maybe even what u will b..positively or negatively



I dont know why, but I personally equivocate Passion with fire, or flames. Both in the literal sense and the figurative