1) anyone that knows me knows that i don't cope well with death. particularly when it's someone i know at least fairly well.
2) it's very difficult to conceal the fact that you like a patient. especially when you see them on a pretty regularly basis. even moreso when the patient has found it in themselves to share the interest they have in you.
3) just because parents aren't divorced, doesn't mean they're still a happy family. or still in love. or that they even like each other for that matter. maybe they aren't divorced because of another reason entirely.