Future Sight

As more and more of my friends become new parents, I get closer and closer to my “mid-life crisis”. I really want to be a mom too.


…and not an older mature one like my family seems to fancy. It’d be nice to actually be able to play with my kids. Who wants to be 55 raising a teenager?

I think the other issues have pushed my clock into overdrive as well. Time is ticking.

99 Balloons

Log 4

Had my surgery yesterday. Survived (obviously). Before leaving, my surgeon kindly told me to never come back, as i'm "too young to be in the O.R. so much." I liked her...she made my surgery a Dora-esque adventure. She cracked a lovely joke about taking out a kidney & selling it. or practicing with a liver, since she hasnt done one since '09. I agreed as long as we share the profits. >_>

Boobs are hella sore now. Downside, I had hoped this wonderfully necessary surgery, however dire, would result in a smaller set. I cant say for sure because i'm still bandaged, but they dont look any smaller -_-;;

Upside? I cant do any lifting until July. July. ooooh...there's gonna be alot of upset folks at my job. "Jax can you bring us 3 reems of 20lb paper stacks?" Followed by *blank stare* and concluding with *walk away*

I'm just hoping the soreness/pain subsides soon. feeling hella gimped out.

Where's the hydrocodone???

I think

I might have done a reckless thing.

Actually, it's not a reckless thing, but I think i might have set myself up for some trouble.

I regret nothing; nothing at all

Certainties

just came to a pretty spirit-crushing realization. Doesn't make for good thoughts. or dreams.

Log 3

Finally saw the surgeon today. After we joked about my fibroid anomaly, she actually had the nerve to ask me why I took so long to come see her. Joke time over. Why I took so long? Why I took so long. I, who sat in your office for five hours and was then told to go home! Why did I take so long? (Because your nurses are incompetent!) Unfortunately, your schedule is retarded dear doctor, as is mine. The surgery is scheduled for May 11th. I will be having part of one boob removed, while the other is biopsied to ascertain where we go next. I'm being really positive about it. Trying to perceive it as a reduction of sorts.


...I always wanted smaller boobs