Had my surgery yesterday. Survived (obviously). Before leaving, my surgeon kindly told me to never come back, as i'm "too young to be in the O.R. so much." I liked her...she made my surgery a Dora-esque adventure. She cracked a lovely joke about taking out a kidney & selling it. or practicing with a liver, since she hasnt done one since '09. I agreed as long as we share the profits. >_>
Boobs are hella sore now. Downside, I had hoped this wonderfully necessary surgery, however dire, would result in a smaller set. I cant say for sure because i'm still bandaged, but they dont look any smaller -_-;;
Upside? I cant do any lifting until July. July. ooooh...there's gonna be alot of upset folks at my job. "Jax can you bring us 3 reems of 20lb paper stacks?" Followed by *blank stare* and concluding with *walk away*
I'm just hoping the soreness/pain subsides soon. feeling hella gimped out.
Where's the hydrocodone???
Showing posts with label health. Show all posts
Showing posts with label health. Show all posts
5.12.2012
4.09.2012
Log 3
Finally saw the surgeon today. After we joked about my fibroid anomaly, she actually had the nerve to ask me why I took so long to come see her. Joke time over. Why I took so long? Why I took so long. I, who sat in your office for five hours and was then told to go home! Why did I take so long? (Because your nurses are incompetent!) Unfortunately, your schedule is retarded dear doctor, as is mine. The surgery is scheduled for May 11th. I will be having part of one boob removed, while the other is biopsied to ascertain where we go next. I'm being really positive about it. Trying to perceive it as a reduction of sorts.
...I always wanted smaller boobs
...I always wanted smaller boobs
9.26.2011
Log 2
I met with the doc today. i thought i was going in for the breast thing, but it was actually for my old nemesis, the fibroids (talk about blind-sided). they've doubled in size since the last sonogram and i've got a 4th one now. He says I’m swollen to about 12 weeks currently. This is likely the only time I will ever be anything along those lines I’m sure. Unfortunately he didnt downplay the knot, even though after the fibroid thing i hoped that he would. but he said he'd rather i discuss the lumps with a specialist, so i have that appointment on the 20th. doc says they need to be checked out because they are suspicious and hard and causing pain. until then, i'll sit and wait & pretend it’s all groovy. Nothing else I can do anyway.
9.14.2011
Log 1
*I've been mulling over journal entries for quite some time now and i've finally settled on what i want to write. i will keep a log and be as accurrate as possible in developing it. starting today.*
i've always wanted smaller breasts. since high school. they bring more attention than i'd like and distract from what I feel is an awesome personality wrapped in an otherwise fab package. I may be getting my wish, just not in the way i had hoped.
I had to have a sonogram done on the 4th. sucks for me, the results came back abnormal. I had been dealing with the knot and some associated pain for a couple months before getting around to having it checked out. school and work come first of course. even the 'abnormal' result didnt really bother me. i've had biopsies done before and it was no big deal. what actually concerned me just a little was the letter i got from the doc, telling me i needed to come in and appointment already being made with him. that's not how it went last time.
i'm trying my best to keep a level head, to not jump to conclusions. i'm working hard to convince myself that i've gotten through my hardship, my hurdles are over. i dont know if i have any left in me to make it through another one.
i've always wanted smaller breasts. since high school. they bring more attention than i'd like and distract from what I feel is an awesome personality wrapped in an otherwise fab package. I may be getting my wish, just not in the way i had hoped.
I had to have a sonogram done on the 4th. sucks for me, the results came back abnormal. I had been dealing with the knot and some associated pain for a couple months before getting around to having it checked out. school and work come first of course. even the 'abnormal' result didnt really bother me. i've had biopsies done before and it was no big deal. what actually concerned me just a little was the letter i got from the doc, telling me i needed to come in and appointment already being made with him. that's not how it went last time.
i'm trying my best to keep a level head, to not jump to conclusions. i'm working hard to convince myself that i've gotten through my hardship, my hurdles are over. i dont know if i have any left in me to make it through another one.
12.15.2007
Life Changes
It's coming up on a year now (December 21) that i've been (attempting to) cope with a multitude of health problems that have all been discovered and newly developed. Year 1 was rough enough with me not knowing when my body was gonna battle back against me.
Many females my age dont even know what uterine fibroids are. And if they do, its not because they themselves have experienced it, but maybe their mom or an aunt. Fibroids are supposed to be and older woman inconvenience (they typically occur after pregnancy, the age of 30, or right before menopause). Obviously, i dont fit the bill. I'm 22, no children, and faaaaaar from menopause...unless my body's harboring another surprise. There is one other major cause for fibroids however - being overweight. When someone is more than 25lbs overweight, the body tends to go haywire when it comes to hormones and chemicals. In women specifically, the body can overproduce estrogen, as a, compensation kind of. So they grow and lead to a host of even more inconveniences - heavy menstrual bleeding, pain in the lower abdomen or back, painful sex, peeing like an elderly person. I tell ya, what a year.
I just did research and found that I cant even do the non-hysterectomy treatment, because there's a 60% chance that conceiving will be severely impaired. Hooray for one rung lower on the ladder of uterus-loss. Instead of losing it completely, i just risk losing its primary capabilities. Fair trade.
The other issue I wont even get into because honestly, it embarrasses me greatly. I dont plan to let anyone in on this one for quite a while...or at least til i'm mentally ready. The idea of it still drives me crazy. Nonetheless, i am in the process of getting it fixed permanently. I'm so thrilled that it wont result in me never having kids either. The thought makes me chipper. The procedure is hella painful though, and for some reason will leave me with flu symptoms and possible period symptoms as well, for up to three weeks after. not to mention the 6-month limitation it puts on other stuff. I will cope though, if it means i never have to deal again. ....amazing year.
Between the two problems, i've missed days of school, days of work, slept more than half days, been unable to sleep others, and one doctor thinks they are in part the reason for the big D. i dont doubt it...something i cant directly do anything about and could potentially impair/kill me is not something that can really be sat on & taken in stride. Who wouldnt stress? Time bombs galore.
Of course, everyone's telling me not to worry, "its ok". But its not happening to them. They arent in my position. And i'll be damned if everyone would actually believe that everything will be "totally fine" if they were faced with it all. I'm nowhere near in the clear, and until the right moves are made, i think i'll be stuck in this little sinkhole of medical madness.
I think I feel a panic attack coming on.
Many females my age dont even know what uterine fibroids are. And if they do, its not because they themselves have experienced it, but maybe their mom or an aunt. Fibroids are supposed to be and older woman inconvenience (they typically occur after pregnancy, the age of 30, or right before menopause). Obviously, i dont fit the bill. I'm 22, no children, and faaaaaar from menopause...unless my body's harboring another surprise. There is one other major cause for fibroids however - being overweight. When someone is more than 25lbs overweight, the body tends to go haywire when it comes to hormones and chemicals. In women specifically, the body can overproduce estrogen, as a, compensation kind of. So they grow and lead to a host of even more inconveniences - heavy menstrual bleeding, pain in the lower abdomen or back, painful sex, peeing like an elderly person. I tell ya, what a year.
I just did research and found that I cant even do the non-hysterectomy treatment, because there's a 60% chance that conceiving will be severely impaired. Hooray for one rung lower on the ladder of uterus-loss. Instead of losing it completely, i just risk losing its primary capabilities. Fair trade.
The other issue I wont even get into because honestly, it embarrasses me greatly. I dont plan to let anyone in on this one for quite a while...or at least til i'm mentally ready. The idea of it still drives me crazy. Nonetheless, i am in the process of getting it fixed permanently. I'm so thrilled that it wont result in me never having kids either. The thought makes me chipper. The procedure is hella painful though, and for some reason will leave me with flu symptoms and possible period symptoms as well, for up to three weeks after. not to mention the 6-month limitation it puts on other stuff. I will cope though, if it means i never have to deal again. ....amazing year.
Between the two problems, i've missed days of school, days of work, slept more than half days, been unable to sleep others, and one doctor thinks they are in part the reason for the big D. i dont doubt it...something i cant directly do anything about and could potentially impair/kill me is not something that can really be sat on & taken in stride. Who wouldnt stress? Time bombs galore.
Of course, everyone's telling me not to worry, "its ok". But its not happening to them. They arent in my position. And i'll be damned if everyone would actually believe that everything will be "totally fine" if they were faced with it all. I'm nowhere near in the clear, and until the right moves are made, i think i'll be stuck in this little sinkhole of medical madness.
I think I feel a panic attack coming on.
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