What a year it's been. I quit my job. I moved 1000 miles across country
to my new home. I started a new job. I refused to compromise my beliefs
and lost a friend because of it. I traveled so far. I fell so hard in
love. Then I lost that love. I found out what it's really like to hate
your job. I lost 50 pounds. I decided to actively pursue my dreams. I
endured more surgeries. Friends died. I finally rose up against my
sister. I was lost. I quit my job again. Family died. I bonded with my
brother. I took up yoga. And spinning. I actually celebrated a birthday. I found two jobs, both in things I adore.
I moved, again. I discovered I was pregnant. I gained an understanding
of true love. I miscarried. I let go of the past. I learned about the
person I am. I realized the kind of person I will always be. I
reconnected with an old friend. She reunited me with a piece of myself I
lost years ago. I grew.
2013 taught me so much. about me. about
the people I choose to keep close. about the world around me. about
life. It was an emotional roller-coaster. But I have truly
grown....mentally and spiritually. I've found myself. I see things so
much clearer. Operation Three Ten was born this year. Based off of 1
Peter 3:10 - "Whoever desires to love life and see good days, let him
keep his tongue from evil and his lips from speaking deceit." December
2013 - 31 days, 10 things a day. 10 times, you discover what you are
grateful for. By today, the 31st day, 310 things will exist in your
memory. 310 things to take into 2014, to remind you why it's all worth
it. I'm very much looking forward to 2014. So for December 31st, I'm grateful for -
1) liberation
2) emotions
3) every day
4) intelligence
5) imagination
6) creativity
7) discovery
8) love in all forms
9) freedom of expression
10) my life....me
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12.31.2013
12.30.2013
12/30
i'm grateful for....
1) my legacy
2) my future children
3) my past children
4) belief in reincarnation
5) the Bible
6) Faith
7) being loved
8) meditation
9) reputation
10) character
11) destiny
12) motherhood
13) hypocritical humility
14) honest arrogance
15) friends i've lost
16) friends i've made
17) chances
18) my friend becoming a mom
19) being a part of something much bigger than me
20) being so non-judgmental
1) my legacy
2) my future children
3) my past children
4) belief in reincarnation
5) the Bible
6) Faith
7) being loved
8) meditation
9) reputation
10) character
11) destiny
12) motherhood
13) hypocritical humility
14) honest arrogance
15) friends i've lost
16) friends i've made
17) chances
18) my friend becoming a mom
19) being a part of something much bigger than me
20) being so non-judgmental
12.29.2013
12/29
i'm grateful for...
1) red-heads
2) Bluetooth ear pieces
3) resolve
4) GPS
5) New Years plans!
6) goals for 2014
7) canvas posters
8) having someone to share experiences with
9) being 28
10) living
11) rediscovering my spirituality
12) embracing my sexuality
13) being different
14) serenity
15) retail
16) great customer service
17) clutches
18) accordion wallets
19) listen to your heart by Alicia Keys
20) the climb by Miley Cyrus
1) red-heads
2) Bluetooth ear pieces
3) resolve
4) GPS
5) New Years plans!
6) goals for 2014
7) canvas posters
8) having someone to share experiences with
9) being 28
10) living
11) rediscovering my spirituality
12) embracing my sexuality
13) being different
14) serenity
15) retail
16) great customer service
17) clutches
18) accordion wallets
19) listen to your heart by Alicia Keys
20) the climb by Miley Cyrus
12.28.2013
12/28
i'm grateful for...
1) kindred spirits
2) learning to walk away
3) reconnecting
4) healthy living
5) Josue
6) regret
7) being admired
8) making others happy
9) moving forward
10) ramen noodles
11) encouragement
12) standards
13) being understood
14) SNF/MNF theme songs
15) sarcasm
16) compassion
17) a part time job with flex hours
18) well-maintained facial hair
19) kingdom hearts
20) scarves
1) kindred spirits
2) learning to walk away
3) reconnecting
4) healthy living
5) Josue
6) regret
7) being admired
8) making others happy
9) moving forward
10) ramen noodles
11) encouragement
12) standards
13) being understood
14) SNF/MNF theme songs
15) sarcasm
16) compassion
17) a part time job with flex hours
18) well-maintained facial hair
19) kingdom hearts
20) scarves
12.27.2013
12/27
I'm grateful for....
1) scrapbooks and scrapbooking
2) green truck pub
3) my personal esthetician
4) Papilotte
5) Hartsfield/JFK airports
6) strangers
7) photo albums
8) fanboys
9) suicide hotlines
10) being perfectly imperfect
11) watching the sheriff ghost past me
12) the presence of justice
13) to have seen a black president
14) domino, the game
15) working late hours
16) the game have you ever
17) friends that know my allergies
18) friends who care about my well being
19) home videos
20) childhood
1) scrapbooks and scrapbooking
2) green truck pub
3) my personal esthetician
4) Papilotte
5) Hartsfield/JFK airports
6) strangers
7) photo albums
8) fanboys
9) suicide hotlines
10) being perfectly imperfect
11) watching the sheriff ghost past me
12) the presence of justice
13) to have seen a black president
14) domino, the game
15) working late hours
16) the game have you ever
17) friends that know my allergies
18) friends who care about my well being
19) home videos
20) childhood
12.26.2013
12/26
I am grateful for....
1) these visions I keep having of my future husband - I don't know who he is but damned if he doesn't make me smile every time
2) my lungs - my blood may not always work in tandem to get me the oxygen, but they are one body part that functions properly
3) Shane - he got a lot of things for me when my parents couldn't and never asked for any kind of repayment. now I pay it forward the same way
4) kindness - of strangers and familiars. when I needed it most, the right people just stepped in and gave of themselves
5) censors - without them censoring every other word....my brain wouldn't even register that some songs need 'censorship'
6) my scars - the little reminders
7) cruise control - for those leg cramps on long trips
8) stars - the sky is beautiful
9) jennifer - I think her words might have just found me and saved me
10) being able to see the growth of friends - i love that we can grow together
11) inspiration - strikes at the oddest times
12) kimye and bey-z both having girls - that means they can't grow up fall in love and have some super baby that makes me kill. everyone. -_-
13) Bill Goldberg - me & my dad were able to bond over that man
14) Batista - ...he's so pretty
15) Brock Lesnar - he's a BEAST
16) Big E - ...all the big guys. LOVE them. want to see them fight each other in some reckless 4 way elimination match
17) no traffic - i love getting home in 15 mins when it normally takes 40
18) movie nights - the simple stuff makes me so happy
19) snail mail - these notes I will treasure forever
20) new journeys - who likes doing the same thing day in and day out every single week?
1) these visions I keep having of my future husband - I don't know who he is but damned if he doesn't make me smile every time
2) my lungs - my blood may not always work in tandem to get me the oxygen, but they are one body part that functions properly
3) Shane - he got a lot of things for me when my parents couldn't and never asked for any kind of repayment. now I pay it forward the same way
4) kindness - of strangers and familiars. when I needed it most, the right people just stepped in and gave of themselves
5) censors - without them censoring every other word....my brain wouldn't even register that some songs need 'censorship'
6) my scars - the little reminders
7) cruise control - for those leg cramps on long trips
8) stars - the sky is beautiful
9) jennifer - I think her words might have just found me and saved me
10) being able to see the growth of friends - i love that we can grow together
11) inspiration - strikes at the oddest times
12) kimye and bey-z both having girls - that means they can't grow up fall in love and have some super baby that makes me kill. everyone. -_-
13) Bill Goldberg - me & my dad were able to bond over that man
14) Batista - ...he's so pretty
15) Brock Lesnar - he's a BEAST
16) Big E - ...all the big guys. LOVE them. want to see them fight each other in some reckless 4 way elimination match
17) no traffic - i love getting home in 15 mins when it normally takes 40
18) movie nights - the simple stuff makes me so happy
19) snail mail - these notes I will treasure forever
20) new journeys - who likes doing the same thing day in and day out every single week?
12.25.2013
12/25
I am grateful for....
1) my fellow medical workers - they saved my brother's life today
2) my nieces - they're a blessing for me and for him
3) bisexuality - although I'm no longer sure that I'm bisexual as much as...I can unbiasedly fall in love with anyone, as long as they have a good heart
4) people - the degree (it's not even a level anymore) of stupidity we've succumbed to is often downright hilarious.
5) rediscovering an old love - there's truly nothing like it in the world...
6) Xmas dinner with family - friends & family make the holidays a little nicer
7) my jack hat - it's a conversation starter, it's sexy on me, and it keeps my bald head warm. win-win-win
8) "good morning/night" texts - someone is thinking of me
9) Tristan - so many games I never would have seen, so much of life I never would have lived
10) Rose gold - I hate yellow gold. rose gold goes so much better with silver or white gold
11) my angel necklace - the sweetest way to remember Austin, given in gift form
12) an early paycheck - one of the best ways to welcome the holidays
13) gift cards - a quick, easy, and highly useful gift
14) fulfilling a promise - it makes me feel good to know I can keep my word
15) Darren - made sure I kept my cool around my sister today, even when she pushed those buttons
16) pasta - I'm a fat Italian at heart. it has to be in the genes somewhere
17) red velvet cake - ....it's red velvet cake
18) safe travels - as much driving as we do, I'm glad we get everywhere in one piece
19) wine - great when alone...better with company
20) comic-con - it's like the best of the world all wrapped up in one place
1) my fellow medical workers - they saved my brother's life today
2) my nieces - they're a blessing for me and for him
3) bisexuality - although I'm no longer sure that I'm bisexual as much as...I can unbiasedly fall in love with anyone, as long as they have a good heart
4) people - the degree (it's not even a level anymore) of stupidity we've succumbed to is often downright hilarious.
5) rediscovering an old love - there's truly nothing like it in the world...
6) Xmas dinner with family - friends & family make the holidays a little nicer
7) my jack hat - it's a conversation starter, it's sexy on me, and it keeps my bald head warm. win-win-win
8) "good morning/night" texts - someone is thinking of me
9) Tristan - so many games I never would have seen, so much of life I never would have lived
10) Rose gold - I hate yellow gold. rose gold goes so much better with silver or white gold
11) my angel necklace - the sweetest way to remember Austin, given in gift form
12) an early paycheck - one of the best ways to welcome the holidays
13) gift cards - a quick, easy, and highly useful gift
14) fulfilling a promise - it makes me feel good to know I can keep my word
15) Darren - made sure I kept my cool around my sister today, even when she pushed those buttons
16) pasta - I'm a fat Italian at heart. it has to be in the genes somewhere
17) red velvet cake - ....it's red velvet cake
18) safe travels - as much driving as we do, I'm glad we get everywhere in one piece
19) wine - great when alone...better with company
20) comic-con - it's like the best of the world all wrapped up in one place
12.24.2013
12/24
i'm grateful for...
1) my football knowledge - i can enjoy the game even when my teams aren't winning
2) being mostly fearless - I'm not limited by banal things
3) pre-Xmas dinner with friends - today was a great day
4) getting out of work early - always good, especially on christmas eve
5) Shaun T 5-min workouts - no excuse to skip a workout
6) my grandpapas - although I didn't have them in my life, I feel they watch over me
7) my grandmamas - i did have them both in my life, and they spoiled baby Jax
8) my nana - she didn't spoil me; she taught me how to care
9) Uncle Archie/Uncle Lefty - i looked forward to seeing them every single time. i hate u tobacco
10) salads - sometimes I just really want some spinach & arugula
11) my imperfections - they make me unique
12) my insecurities - they keep me grounded
13) military personnel - they keep me safe
14) thunderstorms - they scare me sometimes, but that's why I keep my friends so close
15) knowing my worth - who else will
16) having an upstairs apartment - f3ck clothes. i can be naked all day in my house. walk in and strip
17) southern hospitality - these people....the level of genuine niceness is incredible. I can't help but smile every day
18) the men I get to work with every day - that eye candy though
19) the kids I get to see every day - that playful innocence warms every inch of me
20) firefighters - for two reasons. yes.
1) my football knowledge - i can enjoy the game even when my teams aren't winning
2) being mostly fearless - I'm not limited by banal things
3) pre-Xmas dinner with friends - today was a great day
4) getting out of work early - always good, especially on christmas eve
5) Shaun T 5-min workouts - no excuse to skip a workout
6) my grandpapas - although I didn't have them in my life, I feel they watch over me
7) my grandmamas - i did have them both in my life, and they spoiled baby Jax
8) my nana - she didn't spoil me; she taught me how to care
9) Uncle Archie/Uncle Lefty - i looked forward to seeing them every single time. i hate u tobacco
10) salads - sometimes I just really want some spinach & arugula
11) my imperfections - they make me unique
12) my insecurities - they keep me grounded
13) military personnel - they keep me safe
14) thunderstorms - they scare me sometimes, but that's why I keep my friends so close
15) knowing my worth - who else will
16) having an upstairs apartment - f3ck clothes. i can be naked all day in my house. walk in and strip
17) southern hospitality - these people....the level of genuine niceness is incredible. I can't help but smile every day
18) the men I get to work with every day - that eye candy though
19) the kids I get to see every day - that playful innocence warms every inch of me
20) firefighters - for two reasons. yes.
12.23.2013
12/23
i'm grateful for...
1) being fought for - it's nice to have a reminder of that outside support
2) compliments - i love confidence boosters
3) being told I'm beautiful - because I forget sometimes
4) my freckles - they're a part of me, my mom, my lineage
5) awkward moments - lead to new doors being opened
6) quality time - one of the foundations of good relationships
7) long conversations - the other foundation of good relationships
8) a Capella singing groups - the talent of a capellas...astounding
9) my memories - subtle good (or bad) reminders of things long since passed
10) "just because" gifts - just because
11 & 12) Revelations - the Bible book, and the actual occurrences in real life
13) almond milk - for the lactose and soy intolerant, we can still have cereal
14) Christmas songs - sometimes they just lighten that mood
15) karma - bad or good....you get what you deserve
16) serendipity - made me rethink my stance on a few things this year. don't know how I ever looked at it any other way
17) my god parents - all that crazy kept me out of trouble
18) the rain - perfect for dancing
19) kisses - the way to express love
20) intimate moments - can turn a terrible day around real fast.
1) being fought for - it's nice to have a reminder of that outside support
2) compliments - i love confidence boosters
3) being told I'm beautiful - because I forget sometimes
4) my freckles - they're a part of me, my mom, my lineage
5) awkward moments - lead to new doors being opened
6) quality time - one of the foundations of good relationships
7) long conversations - the other foundation of good relationships
8) a Capella singing groups - the talent of a capellas...astounding
9) my memories - subtle good (or bad) reminders of things long since passed
10) "just because" gifts - just because
11 & 12) Revelations - the Bible book, and the actual occurrences in real life
13) almond milk - for the lactose and soy intolerant, we can still have cereal
14) Christmas songs - sometimes they just lighten that mood
15) karma - bad or good....you get what you deserve
16) serendipity - made me rethink my stance on a few things this year. don't know how I ever looked at it any other way
17) my god parents - all that crazy kept me out of trouble
18) the rain - perfect for dancing
19) kisses - the way to express love
20) intimate moments - can turn a terrible day around real fast.
12.22.2013
12/22
I am grateful for...
1) diesel - these shoes are epically comfortable
2) fossil - every single one of my watches. ...stylish
3) random white baby - when he reached out and grabbed my hand that cold fall day, I knew my destiny was in raising children
4) opportunity - it comes at the right time
5) forgiveness - it takes a lot of weight off of my shoulders
6) happiness - sometimes it is a choice, and I'd rather be happy than wallow in perpetual sadness
7) my barber - i like having someone I can trust to make my head pretty
8) sleeping in - there are days when it's just so necessary
9) communication - i hate being in the dark
10) personal growth - i'm proud of me
11) my zune - f3ck a ipad. my zune has done me no wrong ever.
12) consistent people - daddy taught me early that consistency is key to longstanding things
13) being able to swim - i love the water
14) my dreams - they make me face everything i'm in denial about
15) winter - makes for good nights of cuddling
16) summer - i need the sun, and with the summer sun comes SWIMMING
17) the rain - i don't know why, but it makes me think of fresh starts...washing away the old
18) the will to travel - i feel bad for those that limit themselves to their own four walls
19) daydreams - escapes from my reality are great for the psyche
20) great models of what true love looks like - so i'll know it when I get to experience it one day
1) diesel - these shoes are epically comfortable
2) fossil - every single one of my watches. ...stylish
3) random white baby - when he reached out and grabbed my hand that cold fall day, I knew my destiny was in raising children
4) opportunity - it comes at the right time
5) forgiveness - it takes a lot of weight off of my shoulders
6) happiness - sometimes it is a choice, and I'd rather be happy than wallow in perpetual sadness
7) my barber - i like having someone I can trust to make my head pretty
8) sleeping in - there are days when it's just so necessary
9) communication - i hate being in the dark
10) personal growth - i'm proud of me
11) my zune - f3ck a ipad. my zune has done me no wrong ever.
12) consistent people - daddy taught me early that consistency is key to longstanding things
13) being able to swim - i love the water
14) my dreams - they make me face everything i'm in denial about
15) winter - makes for good nights of cuddling
16) summer - i need the sun, and with the summer sun comes SWIMMING
17) the rain - i don't know why, but it makes me think of fresh starts...washing away the old
18) the will to travel - i feel bad for those that limit themselves to their own four walls
19) daydreams - escapes from my reality are great for the psyche
20) great models of what true love looks like - so i'll know it when I get to experience it one day
12.21.2013
12/21
I am grateful for...
1) cuddling - ...i like being close to people
2) Duke Crocker - if I have to choose between Duke & Nathan, it'll be me on Duke every. night.
3) massages - my body just needs it sometimes
4) squats - this ass though...
5) Key & Peele - Dan Smith is everything
6) popcorners - my favorite little snack. fuck pringles. I can never have just one of those
7) my eyes - not everyone can see those sunsets that I love
8) my ears - not everyone can hear the music that makes me smile
9) my nose - not everyone can smell the flowers, or bread baking. or the signs of danger like something burning
10) my heart - as much as it hurts to love, i'm glad it has such a great capacity for love. and pain.
11) adventurers - when you put down the smart phone, the video games, and the tablet....you'd be surprised what you get into
12) Dominican College - seriously one of the best times of my life
13) hotel living - how many students/people can say they lived in a hotel for a year? daily housekeeping, room service and ALL
14) Six Flags 2012 - riding Kingda Ka in an empty theme park while Hurricane Sandy roamed a few hundred miles off that jersey shore...we were kings
15) South Beach 2003 - we bonded. RFK & Naz came together and it worked
16) my sexuality - I like guys. I like girls. ...I just like people
17) day planners - my life got ridiculously busy this year. 2014 is going to own me
18) 2013 - this year taught me a lot about growing up. really growing up. not the shit half of my generation tries to pass off as being grown
19) my common sense - seriously, it has saved me from so much bullshit. and laughed in my face when I outright ignored it
20) The Simpsons - a cartoon almost as old as me. a cartoon so old and so ahead of it's time that big business can't even put a muzzle on it. talk about creative freedom.
today, it got easy again. 1/3 of the way there!
1) cuddling - ...i like being close to people
2) Duke Crocker - if I have to choose between Duke & Nathan, it'll be me on Duke every. night.
3) massages - my body just needs it sometimes
4) squats - this ass though...
5) Key & Peele - Dan Smith is everything
6) popcorners - my favorite little snack. fuck pringles. I can never have just one of those
7) my eyes - not everyone can see those sunsets that I love
8) my ears - not everyone can hear the music that makes me smile
9) my nose - not everyone can smell the flowers, or bread baking. or the signs of danger like something burning
10) my heart - as much as it hurts to love, i'm glad it has such a great capacity for love. and pain.
11) adventurers - when you put down the smart phone, the video games, and the tablet....you'd be surprised what you get into
12) Dominican College - seriously one of the best times of my life
13) hotel living - how many students/people can say they lived in a hotel for a year? daily housekeeping, room service and ALL
14) Six Flags 2012 - riding Kingda Ka in an empty theme park while Hurricane Sandy roamed a few hundred miles off that jersey shore...we were kings
15) South Beach 2003 - we bonded. RFK & Naz came together and it worked
16) my sexuality - I like guys. I like girls. ...I just like people
17) day planners - my life got ridiculously busy this year. 2014 is going to own me
18) 2013 - this year taught me a lot about growing up. really growing up. not the shit half of my generation tries to pass off as being grown
19) my common sense - seriously, it has saved me from so much bullshit. and laughed in my face when I outright ignored it
20) The Simpsons - a cartoon almost as old as me. a cartoon so old and so ahead of it's time that big business can't even put a muzzle on it. talk about creative freedom.
today, it got easy again. 1/3 of the way there!
12.20.2013
12/20
I'm grateful for...
1) my free round trip ticket - when i'm ready, i can go home
2) clock out time - i get to run home and dive into my bed
3) macys - ma makes that friends and family go FAR
4) cruises - who isn't grateful for a fantastic voyage
5) sunrises - i'm just a fan of the sun....I wish I could live under the sun. talk about a mood elevator
6) open-road driving - gives me time under the sun, and with my own thoughts
7) RFK - I actually ended up making most of my long-term connections during those years
8) Theo - he actually taught me to appreciate myself and love me
9) Arbor Mist - on those nights (or mornings) when I really need a drink
10) Spongebob Squarepants - he's got seth mcfarlane humor wrapped up in a pretty children's package
11) Netflix - saves lives
12) Vistaprint - keeps me stocked in writing supplies
13) Molecular gastronomy - nerd stuff and I LOVE IT
14) Treehouse hotels - I can experience nature without being thrown into the camping side
15) fondue - it's sophisticated, but not too sophisticated for me and my friends to go
16) "bucket" lists - they force people out of their comfort zones
17) waffles - with bananas, I will have breakfast
18) Keurigs - the most amazing invention....apple cider, hot chocolate, TEA
19) my soul mate - the possibility of one day starting our journey together gives me hope on lonely days
20) my enemies - they make me want to be better. better than me, and better than them
it's getting a little harder to pull out 20...
1) my free round trip ticket - when i'm ready, i can go home
2) clock out time - i get to run home and dive into my bed
3) macys - ma makes that friends and family go FAR
4) cruises - who isn't grateful for a fantastic voyage
5) sunrises - i'm just a fan of the sun....I wish I could live under the sun. talk about a mood elevator
6) open-road driving - gives me time under the sun, and with my own thoughts
7) RFK - I actually ended up making most of my long-term connections during those years
8) Theo - he actually taught me to appreciate myself and love me
9) Arbor Mist - on those nights (or mornings) when I really need a drink
10) Spongebob Squarepants - he's got seth mcfarlane humor wrapped up in a pretty children's package
11) Netflix - saves lives
12) Vistaprint - keeps me stocked in writing supplies
13) Molecular gastronomy - nerd stuff and I LOVE IT
14) Treehouse hotels - I can experience nature without being thrown into the camping side
15) fondue - it's sophisticated, but not too sophisticated for me and my friends to go
16) "bucket" lists - they force people out of their comfort zones
17) waffles - with bananas, I will have breakfast
18) Keurigs - the most amazing invention....apple cider, hot chocolate, TEA
19) my soul mate - the possibility of one day starting our journey together gives me hope on lonely days
20) my enemies - they make me want to be better. better than me, and better than them
it's getting a little harder to pull out 20...
12.19.2013
12/19
1) Luke - for helping me out of a pretty dark place
2) living alone - I wanted to live with someone. I understand the many benefits of living with someone. but to be on my own, it's been nice
3) Doctor Who - and David Tennant...great damn show. more sci-fi wonder
4) Supernatural - I think because it makes people look the other way at religion. so much myopia
5) cigarettes - in times of extreme duress, they've saved me
6) ice - what has actually become (as a side effect of pica) a healthier? replacement for cigarettes
7) Benadryl - for those sleepless nights
8) my primary birthmark - it makes me unique, and for some reason makes my patients happy when they 'play' with it
9) number block - they don't have to know you've blocked them and you never have to be bothered by their calls or rude texts
10) wellstar wellness - it's never been so easy for me to find good for me foods....and then gym it out afterwards
11) wellstar family - they welcomed me with open arms. I feel like I've been with them forever
12) chicken soup for the teenage soul - made my pre-teen & HS years slightly less awkward
13) the driver on 75 - hit those breaks, saved us BOTH a date with the sheriff
14) this and my curvy LJ - they've allowed me to see the endless loop I've been running all these years
15) false/short-term friends - they remind me to appreciate the ones who stand by relentlessly
16) pomegranate cranberry scented scrubs - i smell good, i feel good
17) Neil Gaiman - this dude...just writes for me
18) Amazon - just about everything I have ever needed, has come to my house in an Amazon 2-day shipping box
19) Alecia Moore - she's the Neil Gaiman of music for me....
20) Carrot/Carrot2 - the best damn apps I've downloaded. ever. period.
...almost halfway there
2) living alone - I wanted to live with someone. I understand the many benefits of living with someone. but to be on my own, it's been nice
3) Doctor Who - and David Tennant...great damn show. more sci-fi wonder
4) Supernatural - I think because it makes people look the other way at religion. so much myopia
5) cigarettes - in times of extreme duress, they've saved me
6) ice - what has actually become (as a side effect of pica) a healthier? replacement for cigarettes
7) Benadryl - for those sleepless nights
8) my primary birthmark - it makes me unique, and for some reason makes my patients happy when they 'play' with it
9) number block - they don't have to know you've blocked them and you never have to be bothered by their calls or rude texts
10) wellstar wellness - it's never been so easy for me to find good for me foods....and then gym it out afterwards
11) wellstar family - they welcomed me with open arms. I feel like I've been with them forever
12) chicken soup for the teenage soul - made my pre-teen & HS years slightly less awkward
13) the driver on 75 - hit those breaks, saved us BOTH a date with the sheriff
14) this and my curvy LJ - they've allowed me to see the endless loop I've been running all these years
15) false/short-term friends - they remind me to appreciate the ones who stand by relentlessly
16) pomegranate cranberry scented scrubs - i smell good, i feel good
17) Neil Gaiman - this dude...just writes for me
18) Amazon - just about everything I have ever needed, has come to my house in an Amazon 2-day shipping box
19) Alecia Moore - she's the Neil Gaiman of music for me....
20) Carrot/Carrot2 - the best damn apps I've downloaded. ever. period.
...almost halfway there
12.18.2013
12/18
what am I grateful for?
1) Austin - who knew you could love a little person so much without ever meeting them?
2) my pillows - honestly, if I had to choose, I'd go without a bed before I went without pillows
3) NCW - as hellacious as it was working under such disorganized management, I wouldn't trade the time I spent with my staff or my patients for anything.
4) John - a friend after the fact. I can't imagine where I'd be without some of his insight
5) iron - I'm seriously almost sure is die without it. or at least look that way to everyone. fuck anemia
6) social media - facebook, Twitter, Microsoft, Sony, Instagram...they've all shown me exactly the person I don't want to be. not now, not ever again
7) days off - I can sit by the water and just...be
8) nude beaches - yes
9) family - through watching them, I know what I will and won't do to and for my children. because I know what happens when you make the wrong choice
10) my smile - it may hide a lot of pain, but it brings so much joy to the people that see it.
11) my spirit - she's been here before, and she's nothing if not a fighter
12) religion - as much as it irks me, it's one of the few things left that actually manages to bring people together
13) my brothers - they didn't pick on me. they stepped in to help curtail the abuse from my sister
14) fight club - taught me that the real world isn't rosy. it's gritty and dark and scary
15) Steven J - showed me early in life what real love is. now I know it when I see it every day
16) Steven A - showed me what it is to be truly selfless and to care so genuinely about helping other people succeed. ...there honestly won't ever be another
17) lilies - I absolutely hate flowers... but it's just something about their simplistic beauty that just warms me
18) Jack & Sally - because that's how love should be
19) my new-found confidence - or maybe it's my attitude. whatever had me wake up one day, cut off ALL my hair and make this look good
20) my evolution - I can honestly say that despite every hangup, every snag every issue...I've managed to grow as a person. and it's made me better. and given me so much clarity
I can't believe i've actually managed 60 of these already...its like a workout for the soul
1) Austin - who knew you could love a little person so much without ever meeting them?
2) my pillows - honestly, if I had to choose, I'd go without a bed before I went without pillows
3) NCW - as hellacious as it was working under such disorganized management, I wouldn't trade the time I spent with my staff or my patients for anything.
4) John - a friend after the fact. I can't imagine where I'd be without some of his insight
5) iron - I'm seriously almost sure is die without it. or at least look that way to everyone. fuck anemia
6) social media - facebook, Twitter, Microsoft, Sony, Instagram...they've all shown me exactly the person I don't want to be. not now, not ever again
7) days off - I can sit by the water and just...be
8) nude beaches - yes
9) family - through watching them, I know what I will and won't do to and for my children. because I know what happens when you make the wrong choice
10) my smile - it may hide a lot of pain, but it brings so much joy to the people that see it.
11) my spirit - she's been here before, and she's nothing if not a fighter
12) religion - as much as it irks me, it's one of the few things left that actually manages to bring people together
13) my brothers - they didn't pick on me. they stepped in to help curtail the abuse from my sister
14) fight club - taught me that the real world isn't rosy. it's gritty and dark and scary
15) Steven J - showed me early in life what real love is. now I know it when I see it every day
16) Steven A - showed me what it is to be truly selfless and to care so genuinely about helping other people succeed. ...there honestly won't ever be another
17) lilies - I absolutely hate flowers... but it's just something about their simplistic beauty that just warms me
18) Jack & Sally - because that's how love should be
19) my new-found confidence - or maybe it's my attitude. whatever had me wake up one day, cut off ALL my hair and make this look good
20) my evolution - I can honestly say that despite every hangup, every snag every issue...I've managed to grow as a person. and it's made me better. and given me so much clarity
I can't believe i've actually managed 60 of these already...its like a workout for the soul
12.17.2013
12/17
I'm grateful for...
1) cheese - the second greatest comfort food
2) semi-classic disney movies - 90s disney was my everything
3) my job - it's not quite what I want, but it's close. it let's me help people
4) music - what would life be like without it
5) full moons - i can make wishes on them
6) wishes - they save lives
7) my strength - it's wavered a lot in the the past 8 years but it has never failed me
8) these fibroids - i have an extra appreciation for the health I do have because I know when they want, they can make my life pure hell
9) my journals - they allow me to express my deepest fears, concerns, and feelings without judgment. I'm also able to look back on the past because of them
10) my car - i love to drive. she lets me get out and see whole new things every time i hit the road
11) my heritage - being spanish, irish, native american, and african-american is the coolest thing. I find it hard to be biased in relationships
12) postsecret - i relate to so many of those postcards. It's hard to feel lonely.
13) my imagination - i love to dream and fantasize
14) children - the one consistent theme throughout my life has been my love for kids and the need to help them in any way I can
15) Karina - the closest person to me. I don't know where I would be without her
16) yoga - talk about centering the mind
17) CM Punk - whether it's the character or Phil is actually that lyrically gifted, I love to hear him talk. SO often he says what others won't say, can't say. pushing those boundaries. I. love it.
18) my tattoos - "tattoos are like wearing your heart on your sleeve. It's about showing who you are on the inside by showing it on the outside" - CM Punk
19) poetry - sometimes other people put into words what I'm unable to, and it's amazing
20) naps - i'm just so sleepy all of the time
1) cheese - the second greatest comfort food
2) semi-classic disney movies - 90s disney was my everything
3) my job - it's not quite what I want, but it's close. it let's me help people
4) music - what would life be like without it
5) full moons - i can make wishes on them
6) wishes - they save lives
7) my strength - it's wavered a lot in the the past 8 years but it has never failed me
8) these fibroids - i have an extra appreciation for the health I do have because I know when they want, they can make my life pure hell
9) my journals - they allow me to express my deepest fears, concerns, and feelings without judgment. I'm also able to look back on the past because of them
10) my car - i love to drive. she lets me get out and see whole new things every time i hit the road
11) my heritage - being spanish, irish, native american, and african-american is the coolest thing. I find it hard to be biased in relationships
12) postsecret - i relate to so many of those postcards. It's hard to feel lonely.
13) my imagination - i love to dream and fantasize
14) children - the one consistent theme throughout my life has been my love for kids and the need to help them in any way I can
15) Karina - the closest person to me. I don't know where I would be without her
16) yoga - talk about centering the mind
17) CM Punk - whether it's the character or Phil is actually that lyrically gifted, I love to hear him talk. SO often he says what others won't say, can't say. pushing those boundaries. I. love it.
18) my tattoos - "tattoos are like wearing your heart on your sleeve. It's about showing who you are on the inside by showing it on the outside" - CM Punk
19) poetry - sometimes other people put into words what I'm unable to, and it's amazing
20) naps - i'm just so sleepy all of the time
Operation Three Ten
I inquired of a couple friends the story
behind this "Operation Three Ten" that infected my facebook timeline
before I cut everything off. Interestingly enough, it's got a religious
back story. Of course, yea, I don't subscribe to the whole system of
religion but as always...my curiosity is my lead.The story goes, that
for each day in December, you record 10 things that you're grateful for.
By month's end, you've got 310 things to culminate the year with. The
religion behind it? 1 Peter 3:10 - whoever desires to love life and see
good days, let him keep his tongue from evil and his lips from speaking
deceit.
I can dig it. But since I'm half a month late, I think I'll double up for a spell. 20 a day (so far) has been tough as shit. But...it's forcing me to look at my life, and take note every day, of the things i'm grateful for, big and small. The universe is working overtime to keep me writing..."the writing's on the wall" after all. Talk about irony...
I can dig it. But since I'm half a month late, I think I'll double up for a spell. 20 a day (so far) has been tough as shit. But...it's forcing me to look at my life, and take note every day, of the things i'm grateful for, big and small. The universe is working overtime to keep me writing..."the writing's on the wall" after all. Talk about irony...
12.16.2013
Gratitude
What am I grateful for....
1) for Brooklyn, NY - my first home
2) for Stockbridge - my new home
3) my mother - as dumb as some of my decisions have been, she's been relentlessly supportive
4) my father - as un-smart as he is, he taught me early on how to fight
5) my curiosity - it keeps me interested in new things
6) my education - i see the world differently because of it
7) my twin nephews - it's amazing how different two literal peas in a pod can be, and how much they influence me
8) Haven - my new TV obsession
9) Syfy - Although they kill all my shows after 5 seasons, they brought me Warehouse 13, Haven, and Eureka....so missed
10) Shadow - the loyalty of this cat is incredible. He always knows when to curl up with me and keep me company
11) Cartoons - they are the only connection I think I have left to my childhood, although the cartoons I watch now aren't child-friendly
12) BOOKS - a consistent escape from reality
13) football - the Sundays, Mondays and Thursdays between September and February are just. magical.
14) my god-parents - She balances out his crazy so well
15) my phone - I wouldn't be able to keep in contact with my parents...or maybe it's the other way around
16) Aunt Cheryl - I'll be damned if I didn't pick up a part of her spirit when she died
17) lavender - it's one of the few scents that just perk me up
18) past relationships - good and bad, they've had a part in the person I am today
19) chocolate - the BEST comfort food
20) for being me...just for being me
1) for Brooklyn, NY - my first home
2) for Stockbridge - my new home
3) my mother - as dumb as some of my decisions have been, she's been relentlessly supportive
4) my father - as un-smart as he is, he taught me early on how to fight
5) my curiosity - it keeps me interested in new things
6) my education - i see the world differently because of it
7) my twin nephews - it's amazing how different two literal peas in a pod can be, and how much they influence me
8) Haven - my new TV obsession
9) Syfy - Although they kill all my shows after 5 seasons, they brought me Warehouse 13, Haven, and Eureka....so missed
10) Shadow - the loyalty of this cat is incredible. He always knows when to curl up with me and keep me company
11) Cartoons - they are the only connection I think I have left to my childhood, although the cartoons I watch now aren't child-friendly
12) BOOKS - a consistent escape from reality
13) football - the Sundays, Mondays and Thursdays between September and February are just. magical.
14) my god-parents - She balances out his crazy so well
15) my phone - I wouldn't be able to keep in contact with my parents...or maybe it's the other way around
16) Aunt Cheryl - I'll be damned if I didn't pick up a part of her spirit when she died
17) lavender - it's one of the few scents that just perk me up
18) past relationships - good and bad, they've had a part in the person I am today
19) chocolate - the BEST comfort food
20) for being me...just for being me
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