TextSecret

Since Saturday, I have been inundated with messages. Heartbreaking, profound, inspiring and funny messages. PostSecret creator Frank has brought on a new age of connecting. Once i discovered it, I couldnt help but participate. I was drawn in. It was so freeing. And it helped to know that I wasnt alone in my secrets. I've decided to share my "stranger secrets" on here, so that maybe others can find their secrets among them, as I did.

• I'm 17. I cant wait to be an adult. I babysit a one year old once a week. When I do, I pretend that he's mine
  
  
• Amputees freak me out. I dont know why
  
  
• It kills me that I lost his baby but the wall it put between us hurts more than the miscarriage and has left me feeling more alone than ever
  
  
• I sleep with older men so I wont feel lonely. I had to sleep with 25 until I found him
  
  
• I dont think anyone will ever love me, primarily because I dont have any love for myself
  
  
• I dont have any real friends. Just a bunch of cohorts.
  
  
• I fake orgasms all the time. I've never had a guy give me one
  
  
• I force myself to throw up. If I dont do it at least once a day, I will starve myself the next day. I dont have a great body yet, but I will soon.
  
  
• Thank you...you made me smile today
  
  
• I hope 'once a cheater always a cheater' isnt true, because I cheated on my very first bf
  
  
• I've never been more alone at any point in my life...and I couldnt be happier
  
  
• I dont think I'll ever be happy
  
  
• I see love everywhere and yet I cant find any for myself
  
  
• I secretly hope my fiance gets kicked out of the Navy so I dont have to move away from my family. Even though I know his Navy career is everything to him.
  
  
• My best friend's boyfriend raped me. He said I wanted it and I cant help but think he's right.
  
  
• Postsecret saved my life
  
  
• I love him more than them because he was an accident
  
  
• It took him leaving for me to realize he is the one
  
  
• I think I may have an eating disorder. No one takes me seriously when I bring it up because I 'dont look' like I have a problem
  
  
• I'm glad my friend and her bf are splittling. Now we have more in common
  
  
• I'm afraid I'll never be good enough for my family

It's comforting to know that so many of us across the country, across the globe, have such a personal, unifying bond.

2008 - Year of the Jax

Daily Horoscope Overview
Although New Year's Day is not an astrological holiday, it is a significant marker of time when we think about the year ahead. Today's collaborative Libra Moon helps us to be rational, yet we won't be able to keep our emotions undercover for long as assertive Mars moves to oppose passionate Pluto tomorrow. The Moon enters intense Scorpio (the sign of Mars and Pluto) at 8:32 pm EST to amplify our feelings. Being kind is more important than being right.

Tuesday, January 1st, 2008

Libra Horoscope (Sep 23 - Oct 22)
Your moods could get in the way of an otherwise relaxing day. You might even find yourself in a funk, with no easy way back to Pleasantville. Remember, you aren't responsible for everyone else's enjoyment. Oddly enough, if you do what you need to make yourself happy today, others will appreciate you even more.

Last night was more for me more than anything I think….it was done to give me one more thing to add to the short list of upside for 2007. I went way off my diet for the last night of the year. Between me and two other people, we finished off 4 bottles of Moet over the course of early-morning new year. I couldn’t be more thrilled about it. I wanted to wash away 2007 as emphatically as possible. It was a year that I looked forward to the end of for some time now. You’re right; I’m not responsible for everyone else’s enjoyment. I did my part in spreading the word. I cant force people to commit to things. If they want to, they will. And that’s that. My mom used to tell me that all the time. You cant make someone do anything they don’t want to do or aren’t mentally ready for. I did get a little emotional last night and this morning, and today.I’ve remembered that everyone isn’t ready for the brash no-holds-barred truth of matters.

I went for a nice walk this morning…definitely not in a funk anymore. I feel stupendous actually. It makes me feel good about myself, knowing that I’m putting in the effort to get and keep my weight down. I’ve decided to instill this walking regime into my everyday routine, currently mon-fri. once classes resume it’ll shift to every other day (m/w/f/sat). I like it a lot…it wakes me up and actually I think boosts my energy a bit. I’m also trying very valiantly to scramble together coin for this elliptical. It can fit in my room. It can fit. I have a new goal of 150lbs by July. That’s actually quite reasonable, even with moderate exercise and a small change in diet. I will be utilizing you Knuckles. I wanna be a track star =0P

I came up with two Postsecrets to send last night before I went to bed. Finally! I know exactly how they will look and where my words will be. Now all I need is to actually put them together. I’m so excited to become a contributor and not just a reader, like it’s an exclusive club or something. I cant wait to get them off my chest. I didn’t realize that I’d been burdened so long by them.

Congratulations to everyone else who went out partying last night and got back in one piece, albeit severely drunk and/or hungover. Water is a savior of many! Good luck in the new year, make things happen for yourselves. I know I will.